“Friends…”

It is amazing to me how some one can claim to be your best friend for 20 years… then get angry when you make a decision that will immediately make your life considerably easier with very little affect on them…

The icing on the cake is when they contact you almost a year later to request specific information from you, proceed to tell you that they “heard” all these things that pretty much sums up that you are a piece of shit but will not tell you what these things are… then has the nerve to DEMAND that YOU be respectful of THEIR wish not to discuss it any further…

Yesterday marked 11 years…

Dear Frogger,

March 15, 1998 you became a part of your new family. This date holds so much more significance for me than your birthday, or mother’s day, or all the days you are in my heart and on my mind.

For some reason this year seemed harder than it has been in a very long time. I’m not sure why that is. The day replayed over and over in my mind as if I had gone back in time. I remembered things I had been afraid I had forgotten. I remembered things clearly that have become fuzzy with time.

Wednesday Whine-Fest

Dear J-Bird,

Just so you know… when I ask you if you what you did last night or if you had a good time I am simply making conversation. I am not asking for a play by play. Grow up and stop being defensive.

Love always,
Your one & only (person that will put up with your crap)

Since I’ve been gone… Sort of

I don’t know why it is so difficult for me to write when things are going well. That’s why I haven’t been around… But I suppose that is a good thing. I want to write. I want to tell my story as it unfolds. I want to spill all the good, all the mundane, and still feel I have a place to vent my frustrations as well.

I am still heartbroken over the pregnancy. I think about that child and the could be’s and what if’s every single day. At times it seems all consuming.

J-Bird and I are doing well… extremely well even. I have moments of doubt. Most of those moments come from not knowing what would have happened had there been a successful pregnancy and a baby. But I do my best to take him at his word and by how far he had come. That is all I can do. I love that man with all of my soul.

I know… I know…

I must write… and I will… very very soon… I PROMISE!

There are MANY things on the horizon… not great things necessarily… but interesting things!

=o)

I voted… Did you?

And if you did… I hope you did so AFTER you educated yourself on both candidates. I hope you DID NOT vote on one party or the other simply because you always have. I hope you DID NOT listen to what the other had to say about his opponent, but rather what he had to say for himself.